Do you ever feel...

[Kagetsu]

"We would rather bear those ills we have than fly to others we know not of, thus conscience doth make cowards of us all" [/Hamlet]

I have once already been to the point of curling in a ball and wanting the future to stop. But my nature is more "to take up arms against a sea of troubles". Though I do see a time when my strength of will to oppose must fail, and there may be peace in going quietly into the night. But as yet I'm still kicking and screaming all the way.

 

[StarScream64]

I wish I could offer encouraging words of wisdom, but, frankly, I'm with you; life sucks, and I don't see it ever not sucking anytime soon... as in ever.

Sure, I have friends and family, but sometimes I feel like I'm more here for their entertainment than my own. Yeah, so they get a little enjoyment in their lives from my presence, so what am I getting out of it?

I always figured I'd end up killing myself. My sister tried it, my mother tried it, I figure it's only a matter of time before I go for it.

 

[Czar Gato]

Yes; a lot, actually- though in my case it isn't so much depression as psychological malaise, a tiredness. I like how Guitar Slayer put it- world weary. It's a rather impersonal and foriegn feeling, and I can usually snap myself out of it fairly easily.

That's not to say that I don't know what severe depression is like. I used to get horrid suicidal thoughts as a kid, though thankfully those have passed as I've matured and gained more perspective. I think I'm just one of those people who naturally takes the whole "glass half-empty" view of life and has to constantly check him/herself whenever he/she realizes they're having those thoughts.

 

[Beguiled]

Yeesh!

Oh you guys, lighten up! Watch cartoons you loved as a little kid! Listen to music you used to love and now feel slightly embarrassed for ever having listened to. Sing at the top of your lungs with friends on a busy street and if people look at you like you're insane, just give 'em a grin. If you go somewhere and there's funky music, do some interpretive dance, regardless of who's watching. Laugh while doing so. Run down the up escalator. Try on some utterly rediculous clothes and parade around. Howl at the moon, then laugh until you feel like you've cracked a rib. Do whatever insane thing you want. But have one hell of a time doing it. This is the kind of stuff I love. I've found that people are really drawn to outgoing, fun and crazy individuals. I'm drawn to people like that. If you're outgoing and fun, you automatically give everyone else the opportunity and confidence to do the same.

Just have fun.

 

[Leaping Larry Jojo]

I'm not alive anyway. I'm a ghost posting on message boards throughout the net. Whooooooooo....

Anyway, I wouldn't recommend suicide. What if you screw up and instead end up crippled, or deformed? That would just make your present situation worse.

I did once entertain the idea of wandering into a mental facility pretending to have amnesia, like that British guy did a couple of months ago. And then having those cute nurses feel sorry for me and take care of me...oh yeah.

 

[entransify]

Here's the thing-- life can throw a lot, and I mean a lot, of crap at you, and yeah, it get to be very hard to function, but there are things and people that make life so completely worth living for. You know, I've been through a ton of bs throughout my (pretty short) life, but it's not life that can suck. It's unfortunate experiences within life that screw you over. You just have to find those few things that will actually make you happy. Maybe it's something little like a new hobby, or maybe it's a new friend.

You can't undo actions like suicide. And to be completely honest, it's the stupidest thing in the world you can do. I've had friends and family members who've committed suicide, and I'm still angry at them. It's selfish and repulsive. It's not that I don't acknowledge people having problems, because believe me I have enough of my own. I just don't agree with suicide. Ever.

If you were serious about this thread, I really hope you get help. If you weren't serious... well, I figured posting my thoughts might help someone else, too. Take care.

I agree with every word of this post.

As for myself, I've had bad thoughts and have been dealt a lot of stuff I don't deserve, but the thought of ending myself has never crossed my mind.

I mean... I've had my "emo" moments, but it's more that having witnessed certain events has scarred me for life, than anything else.